For the first time in a long time.

Thing turning out like shit/not as expected.

Not getting my work done.

Jokes taken too seriously.

Sometimes I wonder if I am enough for anyone.

As a friend, as a sister, as a daughter, as a girlfriend etc.

When they hang out with me, will they feel loved?

Will they feel needed like they actually meant something to me?

Do I actually play my role well as a whatever to them?

Sometimes, I wished I knew.

Sometimes I just want to be selfish and place myself and the top of my own list.

It's hard pleasing everyone isn't it?

Had volleyball annual gathering just now and it was kind of disappointing.

But oh well, at least cerys, marilyn, lim, qian, cheryl were all there.

This year was a quite different from the rest of the gatherings.

Didn't even take any pictures etc.

Well, things change as I said many times before.

I hope I'm able to get my work printed out by tomorrow.

I can't screw my GPA up if I want to get to a local U.

However, having second thoughts.

It might actually be good for me to go out there, away from all these.

Experience the world on my own for awhile.

Well that's just a plan B.....

I still have about 2 years or so to decide on that.

So, I'll just put that aside for now and focus on my studies.

"I'm afraid to close my eyes cause I know nothing stays the same forever."

It feels so true, well............is it?